Inside of Isiah, there was a huge war going on, the part of him that felt hungry was pushing him to torture and kill Kuma, however, there was that tiny part of him that hates this stupid feeling .
Isiah was already trying to make Kuma suffer before he killed him for hurting Ciel that way yet when he heard Ciel talking behind him he just felt that he went too far.
Yet, he wanted to continue what he was doing even when Ciel was standing there looking at him with his red eyes .
He immediately looked at his bruised neck and automatically his anger increased to the point where he turned around and grabbed Kuma by his collar.
Ciel was very pissed that Isiah ignored him that way and for that, he just said this time with a husky voice:" I want to talk to you"
There was nothing that Isiah wanted at that moment more than talk to Ciel and comfort him, after all, that happened but he didn't , he just said :" Let me end things with this bastard now, I am not letting him take another breath, he hurt you when I asked him not to and I am not that forgiving, I will make sure that he gets what he needs "
The moment Isiah started preparing his body to slaughter Kuma he heard Ciel say:" I wanted to stay with you, I wanted to make sure not to cause you any troubles but …Isiah …this is …"
Isiah knew that Ciel was very pissed these past days of accompanying him, and now that he figured out Isiah's lies he just wanted to be on his own to figure things out..
Ciel didn't know what needs to be done however he was just too pissed off Isiah to the point where he wanted just to be away from him
Isiah didn't hesitate as he stabbed Kuma in the heart, he threw his sword away and then headed towards Ciel with slow steps.
It felt like he was giving him the chance to run away.
However, Ciel didn't go away, he kept standing there while looking at those bodies with so much anger.
He remembered what Lexie said to him about Isiah before leveling up..she basically told him that he was this type of person yet he chose to be blind just for him.
Isiah was still having a deadly look in his eyes yet he went closer to him , and when he finally reached him he said:" you wanted to talk ?"
Ciel couldn't loom at Isiah as he was standing in front of him so he just walked away towards the guest room where they had dinner, Lexie was sitting there silently because she didn't want to get involved with Isiah's murders.
Isiah looked at her briefly and then said:" Go to sleep"
At that point, all she was seeing was his face when he asked for her help while begging her to do that.
She wanted to take Ciel with her but Isiah said to her:" He wants to talk" .She understood immediately that he didn't want her to take him but she was afraid that he might hurt him like the other time so she said:" Don't hurt him as you did before"
Isiah looked at her silently for a long time then he said with a straight face:" You better leave now or I might kill you "
He was being serious, just in those few minutes, Isiah was having so many scenarios in his head to kill her after torturing her for a while .
In those few minutes, Isiah was just killing her inside his head so many times .
He was breathing heavily due to the scent of the bodies in that basement.
Isiah was intoxicated by that urge so he needed to go outside , yet when Ciel asked him to talk he found himself in a tough position.
" You lied…my parents are dead, my whole family …you didn't tell me that" Ciel said .
" Yes, they are dead, I think they all deserve that, and I don't have a single regret about hiding everything from you, " Isiah said impatiently.
He just wanted to end that conversation and leave far away from this place.
However, he ended up hurting Ciel so much because of that.
" They are…my parents " Ciel said very sadly.
Isiah headed toward a chair and sat there while putting his elbow on the table to lean on it then said to him:" Parents ? Huuuuuh, if you are going to say this shi**t to me then I will end this conversation right now"
Isiah was pissed for three reasons, the fact that he had to tell Ciel about what happened to his parents, and also his sick attachment towards them when they already left him during the evacuation.
He can't blame him for this, even Isiah was so stupid to the point where he was blinded by that parental attachment.
Ciel was just a kid who crave for love, it was only natural for him to want to be with his parents.
However, the most upsetting reason among all these three was the fact that he was jealous of them.
ƥαṇdαηθνε| Isiah only wanted for Ciel to be with him and care for him and ask for his help only.
" Isiah, you are so…you don't like me at all Ciel said with tears in his eyes.
During that time Isiah was looking at the wall across the room but when he heard Ciel sobbing he looked at him right away and then said:" Don't say this "
"It is true, you don't like me at all and that is why you are saying these things " Ciel added with tears in his eyes.
Isiah was not controlling his own body, he was sweating a lot, his breath was not controlled and his heart was beating fast.
It felt like all his senses enhanced the moment he killed those people..his tongue was moving inside of his mouth as if he was tasting the bodies he killed .
He felt sick and he hated himself so much .
Ciel wanted to get closer to him in order to look him deeply in the eyes but Isiah just shouted at him and then said:" You …stay away from me "
Ciel was terrified for a second then tormented by that kind of rejection, he jsut stepped back two steps then said:" I am sorry, Isiah"
Isiah's face was not in his normal state , he felt like he was in deep pain while struggling to contain his urges.
At this moment he was even talking about killing Ciel inside of his head .
"Go away…go away to Lexie " He shouted again.
At that moment, Eiajr crawled towards the room and when saw Isiah at that state she just said to Ciel:" You need to stay away from him, he is struggling a lot to be in his right mind, just don't come here until I tell you "
Ciel walked away while leaving Isiah alone in that room as he was doing his best to be the human he wanted .
" Master, don't , if you do that, you will end up hurting people who are truly important to you " Eijar said when she headed towards him, she saw him as he was holding his head between his hands and she felt very pissed that the situation had gone wrong .
" Eijar, I can't, I really can't," He said while struggling even to talk .
Eijar knew that he was going to hurt his body if he continued killing and she insisted on him to not do that but he didn't listen to her and now he was paying
for that.
" Eijar, you stupid little snake, tell me, tell me what to do, I think I am going to die if stayed like this, I have to eat, human food is trashy..I need this "
He was struggling as he was saying thise words but he kept talking .
His conversation with Eijar was the only thing that mattered at that moment.
He would have asked her to bite him if he knew that it would work for restraining him but he knew that the urge was much stronger than usual.
Eiajr crawled towards his neck then rested her face on his cheek then said:" You can't keep pretending that you are a human anymore, you are not a human, you are a dark creature whether you like it or not, eventually this is going to happen, you wanted to kill everyone on your way up, it is impossible for you to be okay after killing ,we all do that"
Isiah just kept focusing on Eijar as she was resting her head on his cheek but that desire was more than he could take so he said with a tear in his eyes:" I don't care about a single bad thing that I am going to do from now on, or even the things that I have done, I am fully aware that I have changed and that I started to put myself first, but this ….this …Eijar …I can't …I want to keep this shredded pieces of humanity left in me "
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